wow, so i officially had my very last day of college- i handed in the final version of my french thesis (32 pages and way too many hours of my life) on friday morning, and then that was it! i was officially no longer a college student. everyone has been asking me- "does it feel like a huge weight lifted off your shoulders?" and honestly... it hasn't really sunk in. i still feel like i need to go home and do homework. i guess when academia is such a huge part of your life for so long, it's hard to just get used to living without it (not that i will miss sleepless nights and long days).
i was always really involved in school.. with activities, friends, and taking on way much more than i could handle... every single term. but that's the way i am, and now that i have all this time on my hands i'm really not sure what to do with myself. haha... well.. my first thought was to go to the beach. so this weekend my and my boyfriend are in the hamptons living it up and taking a break from life. this IS the life.
so i'm gonna be waitressing for awhile (i know... i thought i hung up my belt forever) because i'm not moving home, and i have to pay the rent somehow, ya know? i'm definitely not looking forward to working nights again, but at least this was i'll have time to chill.. sleep in mornings, before i have to start my 9-5 life. and this will give me time to get my resume together, and really spend time on the job search process, so that i'm not tempted to take the first thing that comes along. this is, for now, my plan. and it could definitely change.
so my question is.... is it ok to not have a plan? all our lives we are tought to make one- go to school, get good grades, get into a good college, and then have a job lined up for when you leave. well i had a plan, and my plan changed. so now i'm going to take it one day at a time, and you know what? I'm kind of ok with that. for the first time in my life, i have no idea what will happen... next week. maybe i'll have a job, maybe i won't, maybe i'll skip town and go to paris. so in response to not having a plan... i'm celebrating the adventure in life and all the unknown that lies ahead.
bring it on.
